what's in your mind right now?

In? Nerves. Brain cells. :))

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Do you like babies?

YES! YES! YES!

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What's your favorite kind of fruit?

Banana. :> Joke, berries.

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Two choices: to stay or to leave. Mine was so easy to uncover, you already left with the other.

Who knew I'd get myself into another complicated situation like this one? I've already said I've had enough. Because really, I did. But nothing can stop these feelings from happening. No, not even rationality didn't do the trick. Seems like the emotions took over again before I could tell it to stop because everything's happening too fast again. Too fast that I didn't even notice it was already coming to an end. An end that I didn't expect to come like this. I've expected a clearer ending, a "goodbye" that is as dramatic as the "hello" that started it all.

I would have never imagined it to be this way - me almost admitting that he was becoming a special person in my life. Confessing to my friends one-by-one that I think I'm already developing feelings for you. What with the sweet gestures and never-ending conversations, who wouldn't fall? Or is it just that gravity was pulling too hard on me that even if there was no one to catch me, I fell hard. And maybe even broken a bone or too - and my heart.

It wouldn't hurt like it does now if only things happened slower. Like not just in a span of days, nights and just hundreds of messages sent. If only I'd had the time to know what you didn't like, I would have worked on it. But maybe the problem's not mine. Maybe you really just liked her so much and you're starting to get close so you think you like her more. Because there's no denying there was indeed something before. If there wasn't, then why do I feel this way now? I'm not the type to like a person so much when they don't give me the reason to. I need nudges before I develop feelings because believe me, I have eyes for everyone.

I want to move on and forget everything happened but somehow, some part of me still believes that nothing's gonna happen between the two of you. That you're just doing this because you're extremely jealous. After all, you get jealous real easy. I don't know what to think, say or do anymore when you're around. Because you still give me the attention you gave me before. I don't know.

PS: Ang sakit lang kasi talaga, alam mo yun? Hindi. Hindi e. Hindi mo alam gano kasakit. Nananadya ka ba talaga o sadyang manhid ka lang? Nakakainis ka na e. Kitang umo-okay na ko e. Kasi sabi ko, hindi pa naman kita gusto diba? Madali lang mag-move on! Pero ano? Nang-asar ka pa. Nilayuan ka na nga, lumapit ka pa din. So ano, anong gusto mo? Friends pa din tayo? Layo layo muna. Please lang? Nakakainis kasi mga nangyari e. Sobra lang. Sobra.

On professors, subjects, majors, friends, blockmates and love.

*sana narerecord ko na lang thoughts ko. Katamad na din magtype*

I'm generally, mostly a happy person. At least I thought I was before everything started spiraling down for me.

Ayos naman simula ng sem ko. Akala ko kasi kaya ko. Masakit kasi ngayon, narealize kong hindi pala talaga. Masakit isiping lahat ng inakala kong nasakin after ng sem na to, wala. Nasa ibang tao, nagpapakasaya.
I've never been good at any Science subject EVER. Tanggap ko naman yun e. Pero etong sem na 'to, nang-asar pa. Pinamukha pa sakin. OO NA, BOBO KO SA CHEM. Thank you ha? Thank you for pointing out the obvious. Pero bakit ganun? Diba nag-effort naman ako ma-meet reqs ko sa'yo. Isang exam lang ung sobrang mababa. ISA LANG. 3pts. na lang ung kailangan ko para maipasa ung removals, 'di pa napagbigyan. Ngayon kailangan ulit kitang ulitin? Kelan mo ba maiintindihan na we're not made for each other? Na kahit ilang ulit pa, hindi kita matututunan!
Lec o Lab, wala. Walang maisagot sa exam. Maayos naman siguro class standing ko. Mababa lang talaga exams. Diba pwedeng sa class standing na lang i-base? Ayoko na kasi talagang ulitin. Buti sana kung 5 lang tapos hindi na uulitin e. Okay lang talaga. SANA.
Hindi naman kasi ako sanay mag-code sa papel. Umaasa lang ako lagi sa objective part 'pag ganun. Kaya nung un na lang ung sa exam, sobrang fail ako. Sana lang mahatak ng lab kasi hindi ko ine-expect madelikado dito.

Bakit kung ano pa ung hindi ko major, un pa ung nagpapadepress sakin? Okay naman ako sa majors ko, Math, CMSC. Pero bakit ambaba ng grade ko sa'yo eh halos maperfect ko na exams mo?! Kasing-grade ko lang mga passing lang ung exams?! HINDI KO TALAGA MATANGGAP! Ang sakit!

Katext kasi kita ngayon so medyo okay lang. Pero will I ever stop writing about you? And, will you ever know that I always write about you? Never ata sagot to both. At least, never sana talaga sagot sa latter. Alam mo, kaya siguro ang bitter ko kasi somehow, I want something you give to other people pero never to me. Respect is just an understatement e. Hiya, awa, pasensya, appreciation, pagmamahal (kahit in the slightest meaning lang). Wala, wala yan lahat. Nakakaiyak kasi sa iba nabibigay mo sakin lang talaga hindi. Hindi ko nga alam kung dapat akong matuwa kasi hindi na tayo nahihiya sa isa't isa o dapat akong mainsulto kasi wala ka na talagang hiya pagdating sakin. ALAM NAMAN NG LAHAT NA IBA UNG TRATO MO SAKIN E. Pero every time I try and talk to you about it, you always ask me why I'm comparing myself to others. How can I avoid it when sakin dapat kakaiba trato mo? In a good way. Kasi aminin man natin o hindi, I deserve that treatment more than anyone else! Pero hindi naman kita kontrolado e. Ung sarili ko, oo. Pero ikaw hindi. Hindi ko lang magets bakit hindi ko pa din kayang magbago sa'yo. Siguro kasi umaasa pa din akong isang araw marealize mo na andito lang ako, hindi ako umalis at aalis. Kaibigan mo ko e. Sasaluhin kita. Pero how would you realize this kung lagi kang pinagbibigyan ng mga tao? Magegets mo ba ever na hindi ka nila sasaluhin? Na hindi lahat ng bagay gagawin nila para sa'yo? ANG SAKIT SAKIT. Tapos sa 2nd sem, makikitira ka pa samin. Ay, K.
You were never the one I needed but you have always been the one I wanted. Wala lang, singit.
Nakakainis mga tao. Lagi na lang tinatago sakin mga bagay. ANO BANG MERON SAKIN AT HINDI AKO PWEDENG SABIHAN? Hello, pag ako me alam sinasabi ko sa inyo. Pero pag kayo, sa mga kaclose niyo lang sasabihin. Thank you ha? Ang hirap niyo kayang alagaan. Iwanan pala sa ere e. Mas kaya ko yan. HINDI NIYO MAN LANG BA NAAPRECIATE LAHAT NG NAITULONG KO SA INYO?! Ayos a. Sumbatan pa tayo.
Maldita na naman ako. Eh sorry kung ganto talaga ko. At least ako nagpapakatotoo.

PS: Hindi niyo alam ung feeling ng magigising ka tapos maaalala mo, bagsak ka sa 2 subjects na ni-remove mo at sobrang bagsak ung finals mo sa isa mong major so delikado ka, kaya matutulog ka na lang ulit. Kasi sa panaginip mo, masaya ka. Hindi ka naiiyak. Okay ka. Ang sakit, ngayon lang ako nadepress ng ganto. Gusto kong uminom. Ung walang katapusan.

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what game consoles do you play/have? :D

PS, Gameboy Colored dati. Ngayon may PSP ako, kaso sira ung charger. So in reality, wala talaga. :))

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he deserves it! he has lots of hair

:)) Everyone has hair. :))

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if you were given a chance to know about one thing you would like to know, what would it be? :D

If he likes me too. :"> :)) Ang landi! :P

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oo nga e. ikaw kasi nagsabi, kaya alam na kung sino un :))

Syempre. :) :P

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do you think i'll survive sugar abstinence? :))

NO. :))

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what's your fashion style?

Comfy yet stylish. I hope. :))

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gatas na choco or choco na gatas ? xD

Gatas na choco. :)

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kabisado nyo na yung mission-vision ng cas? x__x

No. Dumating kami sa PAASCU something 5mins. before matapos. :))

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ano kukunin nyong pe(s) and additional subject(s)? :D

PE: Modern dance or street dance siguro. :)
Additional subjects as in GE's? : MST - super not sure. :))
SSP - Philo10 ata trip ng block. AH - CommIII or Hum1 or Speech11. :)

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Iboboto mo ba si Will as USC HAIRperson?

:)) Siguro, if he deserves it. :)

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just to make sure ;) mamaya, mali pala iniisip ko XD :))

:)) Grabehan. May iniisip na agad? Yiee. :)

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gaano kalaki ang difference (in activity) para sa yo ng 1 hr break and 1 hr 30 min break? :D

Mas tumataba ako. :)) Mas madaming time para kumain ea. :P

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How's your January so far? any developments with life? :))

Stressful (heavy on the stress). But yes, so many! Thank God. :)

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http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/lifestyle/01/14/11/whats-your-sign-double-check-new-zodiac-answering what's your NEW zodiac sign? (old --> new) :D

Taurus pa din. :/ Loser ako. :))

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Then you better catch it! :P

Well I would if it wasn't heavier than me. :P

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what two word adjective can you associate yourself with? :D

Two word adjective? O two words that are adjectives?
Two word adjective: IMBA MUCH. LOL. Parang 'di naman ata adjective? :P Adverb ang much. :))

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do you sometimes feel like saying something to someone but end up just saying it to yourself? :| wow malabong katanungan. :))

Ikaw lang naman ganyan Mauee. :)) I say what I want to. :P

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If a baby's leg pops out at 11:59PM but his head doesn't come out until 12:01, which day was he born on?

Idk. Sige, pag-aaralan ko yan. :))

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what are the good and bad study habits of a highschool student ? (for my mini research)

Ano to? Sagutin ko? Or okay na ba siyang topic?
Kung okay na siyang topic: Okay lang naman. Pero medyo cliche na. :|

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What is your darkest desire?

HAHAHAHAHAHA. >:) LOL.
Intriga? :P To have all the beauty in the world. LOLOLOLOL. :))

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http://weeklyworldnews.com/headlines/27321/facebook-will-end-on-march-15th/ Seryoso to?@.@

Idk. Sana hindi. :/

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music, arts or pe? (choose 1) any of the sciences? :D

Music (pero dance Lang). :)) Sciences? None. I'm not good at any science.

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NYEEEH 1111 daaw... di ba ang 11 (binary) = 3? edi cs33! :)) ayaw nyo nun? :))

Haha. Ayoko. Too much thinking, it hurts. LOL.

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is ADDICTION TO DANCE . a good topic for a mini research ?

What specific aspect of addiction?

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what is the most unusual thing you eat/have eaten? :))

Idk. Haha. I don't eat things that are considered to be "unusual". Chix neck na siguro. :P

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Is your refrigerator running? :]

Uhh, yeah. But I don't wanna chase it. LOL.

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ano ang inaasahan mong buhay after ng graduation mo?

Masarap. =))

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what's one thing you wanna achieve this 2011?

Finally pass the subjects that I failed last sem and find out my best learning strategy. :P

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zeeee kumusta? D:

Ayos lang. :) Ikaw?

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ayos NA? :)) teka, cs1111??? =))

Oo. :)) May CS22 din kasi. Kaya hindi pwedeng 11+11 = 22. Kaya 1111 na lang. LOL.

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buti ka pa happy! :))

Ako pa? Haha. Dati laging sad ea. Happy naman. Para hindi nakakasawa. LOL.

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edi acads. :))

Haha! Hmm. Math34? Ayun. Ayos na! :))
CS1111, wala pang midterms ea. Kaya I can't say anything about it pa.
Other subjs, same same. :P

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same "problem" :]

Haha! Wala ako niyan. I'm too busy for that. :P

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at ikaw? kamusta? haha

Ayos! Masaya! :))

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dayaaa! mag-share ka rin! :))

Tungkol saan naman? Haha! :P

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What's your favorite school subject, and why's it your favorite?

Math! 'Coz it's like life - there's only one solution. Although there may be many ways to solve a problem, in the end, there will only be one RIGHT solution. :)

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do you like drawing? :D

I do. But drawing doesn't like me back. :/ Haha!

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It pays to be happy.

I woke up, feeling excited for this day's events. Today was the day we were supposed to shoot all the scenes of the movie. I was glad that this headache was now finally coming to an end. But because we are only our own gods and we can't control the things that are going to happen, the headache seems like a whole body ache now.
My mom and I left the house at the same time and that hasn't happened for a while now. That was definitely a good thing. But when I arrived at the terminal which I was to wait for a van to ride to school, the line was bearable but there were no vans. I arrived minutes before 7AM as the scheduled meeting was at 8AM, but the vans started coming in at 7:15. For most of the trip - the start of it, to be exact - I was asleep so I really didn't have anything to complain about. But when I arrived at school, I was already late and most people were irritated at me again.That's okay. I'm used to that.
I fully expected the people I SMS-d the night before to be there already because I clearly said that they were the actors/actresses and that they need to be at school at 8AM. But guess what? Only two of the boys were there and some other people which I really don't need to be there. Turns out, one of the main actresses were still on the journey and one of them (now I don't know if this is true) didn't receive my message. It's too early in the morning to be stressed out, I know.
So I called one of the girls who was renting a room near school so that she'd arrive faster and we could shoot the film faster, but she wasn't answering. I figured she was still asleep so I decided to call one of her roommates who's also conveniently my block mate. I asked her if she could wake the actress up and ask her to bring 3 pairs of clothes because I need her there. She said "okay", so I sighed a sigh of relief.
Minutes later, one of the main actresses arrived and my main cameraman did too. The other main actress SMS-d me and told me she can't go 'coz she slept with her hair wet and she has a headache. I was like, "Well, f*ck. How about me, huh? I have more things to think about but I'm here because this needs to be done. Can't you just sacrifice for once?! JUST ONCE!"
But as the understanding block head that I am, I told her it's okay and asked her to ask another block mate of ours who was staying in the same dormitory as her to go instead. She arrived, as expected, but carrying a small plastic bag. When I asked her what was in the plastic bag, she said those were the clothes I asked for. I was exasperated. But yet, I still asked her calmly and nicely to go back to their dormitory, take a bath, and then go back because we lack one main actress. It was a good thing she agreed.
Little by little, we shot the scenes. But due to the late time we started and some of us have classes after lunch, we (me and the block head of the other block) decided to resume the shoot after the classes of the people who had them. And then I ate. By that time, I was enjoying myself because I was with some of the people who never fails to cheer me up.
And then we got back to school. We looked for the people who we were to shoot but they did something else that was in relation to their class which they could do some other time. I was really pissed off because if we proceeded to shooting the remaining scenes, we could've finished the movie by today. The Tech team could've edited the movie today, made the trailer and the poster tomorrow, and we wouldn't have to worry about a thing anymore. But noooooo. They didn't want to act so they chose to leave me expecting them back after their class.
Nakakainis lang kasi napaka-self centered ng mga tao. Maawa naman kasi sila sakin. Pagod na pagod na ho ako. Ayoko ng dagdagan pa to kasi sawang-sawa na ko. Paulit-ulit na lang. Gusto kong umiyak. Putang ina. :(